Monday 21 May 2007

You are perfect and you are forgiven

I have been watching a lot of Inside The Actors studio lately. It is such a great show. It is now on daily and I have stumbled across it enough times that now I seek it it out and tape it if I am not going to be home and am interested in the guest. Although, I am finding that even if I don't really know the guest, (or I do know them but think I won't be very interested in them) I am still quite intrigued by them. James Lipton is a great host and does an excellent job of pulling out the best information. At the end of every episode, he asks his guest to answer a questionnaire developed by Bernard Pivot, a French television personality.

This is the questionnaire...

What is your favorite word?
What is your least favorite word?
What turns you on [creatively, spiritually or emotionally]?
What turns you off?
What is your favorite curse word?
What sound or noise do you love?
What sound or noise do you hate?
What profession other than your own would you like to attempt?
What profession would you not like to do?
If Heaven exists, what would you like to hear God say when you arrive at the Pearly Gates?

It has become one of my favourite parts of the show. It fascinates me because there is so much happening at that moment. You can tell that some of them have prepared ahead of time and have their answers all ready to go. Other's seem to fly by the seat of their pants and answer spontaneously. Some of them are trying to be funny and get a laugh. Other's are trying to be serious and thought provoking. And some just are funny and thought provoking all in one questionnaire and they don't look like they've over prepared and planned out what they are going to say. These are my favourites.

I can't answer these questions because I have over thought every single one of them. I'd be one of the over prepared, trying-to-come-across-a-certain-way people on that show. I wish I wasn't. I'd love to be spontaneous and funny and thought provoking and I think sometimes I am but maybe not in front of a live audience and a camera crew. Actually two of my answers never change. My favourite sound is pouring rain and my favourite curse word is fuck.

One day when I was sitting watching I realized that my answer to the last question about God and the pearly gates, changed daily and so I started stringing them together until it became a monologue on God's part. Apparently I've decided God has a lot to say to me.

The thing is that I really love what God says to me. He says "You are perfect and you are forgiven" He then goes on to say "all of your family and friends are over there waiting to throw you a huge party - go have fun". But it's the "You are perfect and you are forgiven" that I really love. I guess because I believe it. I am perfect and I am forgiven.

Yesterday, when I woke up with a wicked hangover and feeling bad about it, I said this to myself and I felt myself let go of feeling bad. I drank some water, went back to bed, slept the worst of it off and then made the most of my day. I am perfect and I am forgiven.

It's nice. It's freeing. I honestly believe that this really is what God would say to us all. You are perfect and you are forgiven. All those things that we do and then beat ourselves up over, we are forgiven.

6 comments:

SG.Riter said...

Don't know if your aware but James Lipton is 81. He was born in 1926. that blew my mind when I read it. Go Jimmy, go Jimmy, go Jimmy, go.

kt said...

I had no idea! That is amazing. I would have put him at 60-something. I guess that just goes to show you that 81 is the new 61. That means I'm 11!

SG.Riter said...

I'm a gentleman soooo....., yes yes, your age minus 20 is 11.

kt said...

ok that is blacking hysterical. The thing is, I really did think that. Math is obviously not my strong suit. I'm thinking that instead of 20, I doubled the two and subtracted 22. Excuses, excuses, I know. It was an honest mistake.

kt said...

....or I was looking at a lot of ones typing that comment and just kept going with it...81, 61, 31, 11
???

Anonymous said...

Interesting, I guess God would say that about us eh? I mean, essentially once we admit we're not perfect and can't do life on our own -- we need other people and God, that's when we are forgiven and are perfect.

I should get into a convo with you sometime -- an open-ended one about religion and the differences between spirituality and religion, I think it could be interesting. :P